"There are four questions of value in life-

What is sacred?

Of what is the spirit made?

What is worth living for,

and what is worth dying for?

The answer to each is the same.

Only love."

-Johnny Depp

Now, in the first post I said "I lost some friends."   well, I did. But I didn't just lose a friend, I lost my best friend. His name is Cody and he started dating this chick in.. April? I'm not sure. But she is such a bitch. For example; I gave him a high five at a football game and she slap him right across the face. She has major jealousy problems. She wouldn't let him hang with us anymore and made/makes him miss one - two days of school because of all his girl friends (when i say girl friends i mean friends that are girls) But I think she was mostly jealous of me though. She deleted like 18 girls off of Cody's facebook and I was one of those girls. But Cody's other girl friends didn't get deleted. But Cody finally admitted to me that she deleted all the "pretty" girls..?? So obviously she was jealous of me more than the other girls.  Its because me and Cody were the closest. a lot of people don't know that.. but we were. We always talked on facebook and texted each other and hung out and stuff like that. And I knows that sounds like what people would do if they were either dating or liked each other but really, we were just best friends. That's it. But I cant blame it ALL on Selena. Cody was the one that let her delete 17 girls + his one of his best friends (me)  on facebook. Cody could have hung with us, but he didn't because she said no. He could have still went to school but since she said not to, and he didn't.

that one day... changed everything.

 It was me, harmony, josh, chris, ciara, and lauren all sit on one half of the lunch table. (cody wasn't there that day, obviously because of selena.)  So we got on the topic of why he always misses school sometimes now, and then we got on the topic of selena.  Me, harmony, Ciara, and lauren were NOT saying anything about selena. nothing bad at all. we just sat there and listened. It was all chris and josh. So, later that day, i get home from school and selena is PISSED. she found out about us.. oh oops.. CHRIS AND JOSH were talking about her. but what she heard was we were all talking about her.. but mostly me of course. love how i'm always the one that gets shitted on in these type of situations ;)

But, a bunch of stupid ass drama happened but then later that night i wanted to make it clear to CODY that i didn't saying anything and he didn't believe me! He believed lauren, ciara and harmony. but not me... i got really upset. and i think he didn't believe me because we were the closest.. i don't know if that makes sense to you but it does to me, so lets go with that. But we got in an agrument... a big agrument. and then... he called me a bitch. now, when someone calls me a bitch, i usually just be like.. you know what, fuck you. but this hit me hard because we were best friends.. like i said 50 times. but i blew up at him and i told him everything that everyone has wanted to say to him for the past 6 months.. and of course it had to be me. it seems like out of all my friends, I'm the only one with the balls to actually say things. and i'm always the one getting in trouble for shit too. even when i dont have anything to do with it. And it got to the point where he called me a cunt, a bitch, and worst of all... fat. I know most people would get really mad over the cunt thing over fat.. but i have always been shy about my weight. I'm 98 pounds. Everyone says i'm skinny and shit. but i don't think i am. so that mad me break down and i just threatend him with my brother beating the shit out of him ;)  and yeah. i just signed off. Then i got back on a couple hours later. and him and selena blocked me.. and then i realized that this "cody" wasnt talking like he normally did when we were fighting. What i mean by that is.. instead of typing like this, bcuz  he typed like because. then i started putting two and two together.. and i realized.. it had to be Selena. I got REALLY mad because i'm not just saying this because i dont like her or anything.. she seriously is so fat, and ugly. like seriously.. i wanna put a picture of her on here soooo baddd its not even funny. thats how ugly and fat she is. But still Cody let her talk to me like that. so i still hate him. and this was like 3 months ago... and cody is trying to talk to me sometimes like hes in my homeroom and he sometimes "laughs" at my jokes when i'm talking to someone else. and sometimes says "haha, yeah" when i'm talking to someone else. but i dont even care.. he hasnt said sorry to me or anything but hes trying to be my friend by trying to talk to me and shit? and when i say hes trying to talk to me its not like "I wanna talk to you allison." and i ignore him. no. Its more like he sits in the front of the room and i sit in the back. He turns around and looks at me, and i do a confused face like "what?" and he either says hi or turns back around.. or says something i dont understand. If he wants to be my friend again. He should say sorry.. right? I think so. I will never be his friend again unless he says sorry and stops treating some of his friends like complete shit. So whatever... thats how i lost one of my best friends :/    miss you...